Thursday, November 21, 2013

Finding a Lost Part of My Self

As I mentioned in my previous post, I have been working on deep subconscious healing.   Today I did a meditation  where I visualized myself climbing down a winding stairway.  The stairs were white polished marble and the railing was light and shiny.  I met my intuitive guidance along the way as I was going down the stairs.  She was slightly in front of me, holding a candle, and motioning for me to continue down.  As I continued down the stairs, they started darkening in appearance. The rails and the marble became darker the deeper we descended.   I couldn't see my intuitive guidance very well until we reached the bottom of the stairs.  My intuitive guidance presented as a woman dressed all in white, but what was unusual was that her face was completely covered with white mesh or gauze, so I couldn't see her features.

As we reached the bottom of the stairs, she presented three doors to me and I selected the far right door.  She opened the door and I entered.  The space was dark and quiet.  My intuitive guidance closed the door.  Feelings started flooding me and I was seeing the words "scared", "sad" and "alone" flashing before me.  I used my inner light to scan the space and saw a young girl about the age of 8 or 9 sitting on the floor, head down and knees pulled to her chest.  She had dark hair and eyes and looked very sad and disheveled.  I reached down to touch her and she startled.  I put my arms around her and I experienced intense pain and sadness which expressed through me as sobbing, wailing and shaking.  I realized that this little girl was a part of my Self, my very own essence that I had lost long ago.  She was holding some of my deep pain that I was holding outside of my love and light.  I held her tightly as the pain that she, this part of me, was holding continued to express through me until it had completely expressed.  When the pain was done expressing,  I told her how much I loved her and that now she was safe.  I opened the door and walked out holding the little girl.  We walked up the steps and as we were reaching the top, a bright, warm and loving light greeted us.  I am now one step closer to being whole.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Going Deep

I'm now in a phase in my healing process where I'm being guided by my intuition to go deep into my subconscious to work on my deepest wounds, fears and traumas.  The realm where this deep pain resides is shadowy and confusing and to be perfectly honest, this is a dark, difficult road to go down. However, I fully trust my intuition to lead me to the places in my subconscious realm that need healing.

The Moon tarot card keeps coming up in my tarot readings and tells me that my internal process is now focusing on a shadowy and confusing place, and that's exactly how it seems when I explore these deep subconscious realms.  This isn't a place I can go with my conscious mind as the moon represents intuition, feelings and our feminine side.  I'm finding that the best way to approach this aspect of the healing process is to simply allow the feelings associated with these deep wounds, fears and pain to come forward to be moved and expressed without any judgment or trying to figure out how or why I have them.

Also, another way I've learned to go deep is to immerse myself in water.  Water represents the subconscious mind and is a good vehicle to help one get in touch with the deep subconscious.    

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Earth is Healing and Rebalancing Herself

The unprecedented massive planetary upheavals we are experiencing and will continue to experience in an even more widespread and accelerated way are primarily due to the rebalancing and healing process our planet is undergoing as she prepares herself for ascension.  Just as each of us must heal and balance our personal energy field to prepare for ascension, our planet also has her process which she must undergo.