As I mentioned in my previous post, I have been working on deep subconscious healing. Today I did a meditation where I visualized myself climbing down a winding stairway. The stairs were white polished marble and the railing was light and shiny. I met my intuitive guidance along the way as I was going down the stairs. She was slightly in front of me, holding a candle, and motioning for me to continue down. As I continued down the stairs, they started darkening in appearance. The rails and the marble became darker the deeper we descended. I couldn't see my intuitive guidance very well until we reached the bottom of the stairs. My intuitive guidance presented as a woman dressed all in white, but what was unusual was that her face was completely covered with white mesh or gauze, so I couldn't see her features.
As we reached the bottom of the stairs, she presented three doors to me and I selected the far right door. She opened the door and I entered. The space was dark and quiet. My intuitive guidance closed the door. Feelings started flooding me and I was seeing the words "scared", "sad" and "alone" flashing before me. I used my inner light to scan the space and saw a young girl about the age of 8 or 9 sitting on the floor, head down and knees pulled to her chest. She had dark hair and eyes and looked very sad and disheveled. I reached down to touch her and she startled. I put my arms around her and I experienced intense pain and sadness which expressed through me as sobbing, wailing and shaking. I realized that this little girl was a part of my Self, my very own essence that I had lost long ago. She was holding some of my deep pain that I was holding outside of my love and light. I held her tightly as the pain that she, this part of me, was holding continued to express through me until it had completely expressed. When the pain was done expressing, I told her how much I loved her and that now she was safe. I opened the door and walked out holding the little girl. We walked up the steps and as we were reaching the top, a bright, warm and loving light greeted us. I am now one step closer to being whole.