Thursday, November 21, 2013

Finding a Lost Part of My Self

As I mentioned in my previous post, I have been working on deep subconscious healing.   Today I did a meditation  where I visualized myself climbing down a winding stairway.  The stairs were white polished marble and the railing was light and shiny.  I met my intuitive guidance along the way as I was going down the stairs.  She was slightly in front of me, holding a candle, and motioning for me to continue down.  As I continued down the stairs, they started darkening in appearance. The rails and the marble became darker the deeper we descended.   I couldn't see my intuitive guidance very well until we reached the bottom of the stairs.  My intuitive guidance presented as a woman dressed all in white, but what was unusual was that her face was completely covered with white mesh or gauze, so I couldn't see her features.

As we reached the bottom of the stairs, she presented three doors to me and I selected the far right door.  She opened the door and I entered.  The space was dark and quiet.  My intuitive guidance closed the door.  Feelings started flooding me and I was seeing the words "scared", "sad" and "alone" flashing before me.  I used my inner light to scan the space and saw a young girl about the age of 8 or 9 sitting on the floor, head down and knees pulled to her chest.  She had dark hair and eyes and looked very sad and disheveled.  I reached down to touch her and she startled.  I put my arms around her and I experienced intense pain and sadness which expressed through me as sobbing, wailing and shaking.  I realized that this little girl was a part of my Self, my very own essence that I had lost long ago.  She was holding some of my deep pain that I was holding outside of my love and light.  I held her tightly as the pain that she, this part of me, was holding continued to express through me until it had completely expressed.  When the pain was done expressing,  I told her how much I loved her and that now she was safe.  I opened the door and walked out holding the little girl.  We walked up the steps and as we were reaching the top, a bright, warm and loving light greeted us.  I am now one step closer to being whole.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Going Deep

I'm now in a phase in my healing process where I'm being guided by my intuition to go deep into my subconscious to work on my deepest wounds, fears and traumas.  The realm where this deep pain resides is shadowy and confusing and to be perfectly honest, this is a dark, difficult road to go down. However, I fully trust my intuition to lead me to the places in my subconscious realm that need healing.

The Moon tarot card keeps coming up in my tarot readings and tells me that my internal process is now focusing on a shadowy and confusing place, and that's exactly how it seems when I explore these deep subconscious realms.  This isn't a place I can go with my conscious mind as the moon represents intuition, feelings and our feminine side.  I'm finding that the best way to approach this aspect of the healing process is to simply allow the feelings associated with these deep wounds, fears and pain to come forward to be moved and expressed without any judgment or trying to figure out how or why I have them.

Also, another way I've learned to go deep is to immerse myself in water.  Water represents the subconscious mind and is a good vehicle to help one get in touch with the deep subconscious.    

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Earth is Healing and Rebalancing Herself

The unprecedented massive planetary upheavals we are experiencing and will continue to experience in an even more widespread and accelerated way are primarily due to the rebalancing and healing process our planet is undergoing as she prepares herself for ascension.  Just as each of us must heal and balance our personal energy field to prepare for ascension, our planet also has her process which she must undergo. 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Feeling and Moving Deep Pain and Grief

Over the past few weeks, certain events have triggered very deep grief in me. I've been trying to express and move this grief as best as I can but sometimes it really feels overwhelming.  Much of this pain, although triggered by current events and situations, is old held pain that has accumulated from numerous past lives and even this current life that now has to finally move in order for me to heal and gain balance and wholeness.

We all harbor deep pain and grief that is or will be coming up for movement.  When this pain and grief comes up, it may seem as though it's bottomless and you may wonder why you are reacting so strongly to the situation that triggered it.  Rest assured that it will end and it's important to allow the space to move and express everything that comes up.  By doing do, you are healing yourself into wholeness and balance.      

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The Power to Heal the World Lies Within Each of Us

As the New Creation prepares to be birthed, everything that is out of balance must be balanced.  This includes the balancing of our personal energy field.  Therefore, we are in the process of a massive dredging up and externalization of humanity's collective shadow, which consists of everyone's denied and disowned parts of self, so that we may own and heal our denied and disowned essence and realize a balanced and whole energy field.  Anyone that doesn't own and heal into balance their lost and denied parts cannot ascend to the new fully balanced fifth dimensional Earth.

Although most people blame others for the atrocities and problems that we are witnessing in our personal venues and on the world stage, these issues cannot be truly healed by trying to make external fixes and by holding accountable those we believe are the cause of the problems.  Trying to handle these problems externally will ultimately not work as their causes are not external but due to our personal and collective internal imbalances.  Do not fall into the trap of trying to blame others for what is being caused by internal denials and imbalances because then you won't work on owning and healing your own denials and imbalance and the external problems will still be there.  Everyone that works on healing their personal energy field into wholeness and balance will contribute to the overall planetary healing.  The realization of the New Creation is almost here and now more than ever, it's imperative to get involved in the healing work  

Friday, June 28, 2013

Healing Fear through Love and Acceptance

As humans, we can operate from the basis of either fear or love.  Everyone harbors fear to some extent and as part of healing into wholeness and evolving into The New World Consciousness, it's necessary to heal our fear by feeling, loving and accepting it.

If fear isn't healed, it can run our life, thwarting our free will by holding us back from doing what we desire to do. When we accept and love our fear, it can show us where we are holding deep pain and suffering thus enabling further healing. 

As we learn to feel, love and accept our fear, our vibrational frequency becomes more love-based and less fear-based.  Meditation and going within and communing with our Higher Self will help us to recognize and address our individual fears.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Shadow Flushing and Integration and Releasing False Beliefs and Constructs

The healing and transformation process that our universe, planet and we collectively and as individuals are undergoing is affecting all levels of existence and being.  As humans, we are each undergoing healing and changes to our physical vessel, energy field and consciousness.

One of the specific topics that I would like to address in this post is the healing and integration of the personal and collective shadow.  The personal shadow consists of all the parts of self that an individual has repressed, rejected and refused to accept and love as true parts of the self.  The collective shadow is all of humanity's  rejected and repressed parts of self.  We have all denied and repressed parts of the self that we haven't wanted to accept.  Any parts of self that we continue to reject and lack acceptance for need to be loved, accepted and integrated into wholeness and balance as we evolve into the New World Consciousness.

The healing and transformation process is flushing to the surface parts of self that humanity on a personal and collective level has repressed, lacked acceptance for and refuses to love.  As the healing and transformation process proceeds, parts of self that we haven't loved, accepted and integrated into wholeness and balance will be experienced as outward circumstances on both the individual and global levels that reflect what we are forcing our lost and denied parts of self to hold and experience by keeping them outside of our love and light. The purpose of these reflections is to trigger us into the emotions that will integrate our lost and denied parts of self into wholeness and balance. 

On the level of consciousness, we are also in the process of releasing all false beliefs and constructs, understandings that no longer serve us and old ways of looking at things.  How this manifests for each and every person varies greatly.  As the healing and transformation process proceeds, any old constructs, false beliefs or understandings that no longer serve us that we still hold will be reflected outwardly in circumstances and situations that will trigger us into release and renewal.  If we continue to stubbornly hold on, the outward reflections will become even stronger until we finally release our grip.  This of course will manifest differently for each individual.  For me personally, I have just gone through this difficult process in regard to my mindset toward money as a form of safety and security.  I did hold on stubbornly for a while to my old mindset as outward circumstances triggered me, but outward circumstances continued to trigger me more strongly until I finally let go of my belief that I need money to give me feelings of safety and security.  Ultimately, even though the process of letting go of the false belief that money is needed to feel truly safe and secure was very difficult and painful, I now feel more free and have a stronger sense of inner personal power and security rather than depending on outside sources such as money to give that to me.  I liken it to the Tower card in the Tarot where lightning strikes the old tower or construct that we have built and the people tumble out of the tower, but it's a blessing in disguise as they are also released from old burdens and fears and gain newly found inner security and peace.

So when these reflections occur, I now try to look at them as opportunities for renewal, release and growth rather than something to fear or run away from.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Tensions Escalating as the Healing and Transformation Process Progresses

Tensions on our planet are escalating as the universal healing and transformation process proceeds.  The best thing to do on a personal level is to love and accept the pain and grief you feel as things continue to accelerate.  To gain the highest insights into why things are proceeding as they are on our planet, I highly recommend the readings on and The Right Use of Will book series.  Both of these resources are channeled directly from Deity and provide deep understandings regarding what we are and will be experiencing on a personal and global level.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The New Creation and The New World Consciousness

All of Creation is in the process of a massive transformation and rebirth.  The old creational paradigm is in the process of completing and we are rapidly moving towards the birth of an entirely new creational paradigm.  As part of this overall process, a new human consciousness is emerging.  This new human consciousness is fully whole, balanced and unconditionally loving, as well as being very powerful.  Those that choose to host The New World Consciousness will become a new type of creator being sponsored by the Supreme Creator that is capable of creating new systems and  universes.

There is still much healing, re balancing and transformation that must take place for humanity, the planet and the entire universe before we complete the current Creation and the new Creation is finally birthed.  Each of us is an important and integral part of the overall universal plan and we are all co-creators in the birthing of the New Creation.   My plan is to develop a series of YouTube videos in association with my e-Book that will explain in as much detail as possible how to prepare for the New Creation and the New Human Prototype.  In these videos, I will start from the beginning and explain how and why we got to where we are and where we are going in accordance with The Divine Plan of Creation.  These videos will be available at

Much Love and Light to all.